Days 33 and 34

Thank God! There have been no problems and tomorrow my wife returns from her trip and I cross the five week barrier. Now, the biggest thing keeping me from porn is this streak. I really don't want to ruin it. I guess we need to use whatever motivation necessary to avoid it. Satan uses whatever methods he can to get us to fall into temptation, so why not use whatever methods we can to avoid it. Go running, play ball, learn chess, crochet, paint, learn a new instrument, sing, do whatever you can to get away from porn. That's what I've done. New sports, new music - even new video games. It helps that I've also been keeping a stricter bed time. Most times that I have fallen in the past have been late at night when I don't think anyone is watching. But the truth is, God's always watching. He always knows what we're up to. In my life without porn, I don't feel looked down upon quite as much. I know I still have this dark past, though. I'm trying to understand that God has already forgiven me and loves me just as much. I need to find comfort in His love and realize that there is a difference between believing in Him and believing Him. I need to grasp His promises and have faith. Good luck, and God bless.