Days 48-51

I have passed the seven week and 50 day marks! And I'm sure today will go just fine as I've got a hot date with my wife. Difficult times may be ahead, though, as I've been feeling tempted lately. It's completely normal to be tempted, it's just important whether we give in to it or not. As TV becomes more and more provacative, I am reconsidering the shows that I watch. Many are harmless but include little things here and there that make my mind wander. I've been slowly learning to spend more time with God and have really been focusing on my relationship with my wife. I'm blessed to have her and I'm making sure I don't spoil it with porn. Thank you for your prayers. Know that I am praying for you as well. God bless.

Days 42-47

Wow, I haven't posted in a long time. This is the first time in three days I've even used my computer! One temptation - it was pretty strong last night. I just left my computer off and watched the news. Probably should have just gone to bed. I'm nearing the seven week mark and I'm finding myself wanting to be closer to God. I'm wanting to spend the time with Him that I've wasted on porn in the past. My longest streak without porn since becoming addicted was about four months. I'm still not near that mark and I know I have to be careful. I thought I was out of the woods then, but I've got a ways to go yet. Many people have goals of 100 days or three months - I just know that's not enough for me. I know I could fall at any time. As life gets busier, money gets tighter, and I find myself more responsible, I think it will be more difficult to fall simply because I'll have less opportunities. It's more important than ever to stay ahead and focus on not falling when the opportunity does arise. Thanks for reading, thanks for praying, and thanks for your support. God bless!

Days 40 and 41

Yesterday and today have been no problem! I watched a movie with my wife about relationships and infidelity. It really got me thinking about they way I treat her when I look at porn. Tomorrow will be six weeks, and feels like forever. But I know it's really not that long ago. Six weeks isn't the same as the years I've put into it. I need to keep my streak alive and focus on how to better treat my wife. Just because I look at porn when she's not around doesn't mean I'm treating her fairly or with respect. I've always been ashamed of what I do online when no one's looking. It really shouldn't matter whether my wife knows. I just know I've got to stop for her. Anyway, we're going out tomorrow for pretty much the whole day, so i'm sure I'll be fine for Day 42. Thanks for reading, and may God bless!

Days 36-39

I haven't posted in a while because work has kept me very busy. Not only have I not had time to look at porn, but with my free time, I have found it easy to not even think about it. I'm nearing six weeks and it feels great!

I know some of you are struggling as well. Don't give up - never give up. 39 days ago, I didn't think I'd be writing 39 days today. I didn't have a lot of faith in my own ability to quit. But with your prayers and support and God's help, here I am, and going strong. All of you have the ability to quit. Have faith in God and yourself. You can do this. If I can get to 39 days after years of addiction, I know you can do it too.

Day 35

Five weeks! My wife came home today, so I had no problems. I'm looking foward to the next several weeks. Nothing more to say! God bless.

Days 33 and 34

Thank God! There have been no problems and tomorrow my wife returns from her trip and I cross the five week barrier. Now, the biggest thing keeping me from porn is this streak. I really don't want to ruin it. I guess we need to use whatever motivation necessary to avoid it. Satan uses whatever methods he can to get us to fall into temptation, so why not use whatever methods we can to avoid it. Go running, play ball, learn chess, crochet, paint, learn a new instrument, sing, do whatever you can to get away from porn. That's what I've done. New sports, new music - even new video games. It helps that I've also been keeping a stricter bed time. Most times that I have fallen in the past have been late at night when I don't think anyone is watching. But the truth is, God's always watching. He always knows what we're up to. In my life without porn, I don't feel looked down upon quite as much. I know I still have this dark past, though. I'm trying to understand that God has already forgiven me and loves me just as much. I need to find comfort in His love and realize that there is a difference between believing in Him and believing Him. I need to grasp His promises and have faith. Good luck, and God bless.

Days 31 and 32

Yesterday wasn't a problem at all! Today hasn't been, but I have a feeling I'll be up a while tonight. This weekend will be a little lonely until my wfie comes back. Pray for my continued success, as I've been praying for all of you. God bless!

Days 29 and 30

No problems the last two days! A little more time tonight yet, but I'm so tired, I won't have a problem. I'm nearing five weeks, and feeling great! My wife's trip is over soon and I should be out of the woods for a while. I feel like I have my life back. Thanks for reading!

Days 27 and 28

Okay, so I miscounted last time, but I'm proud today to have completed four weeks! That's a month! It's been over a year since I've gone a month without porn. Okay, so today isn't done yet - but I'm tired and hittin' the sack right after I finish this post. This next week still will be very difficult with my wife gone. But now that I have a month under my belt, I'll be able to use it as fuel until the return of my lovely bride. Praise God for His wonderful blessings! It was a great weekend.