Disaster

Over 180 days and I found out I'm not cured. This addiction will never go away, but I know I can control it with God's help. I don't want to tell my wife about this right away. Is that a bad thing? (Please comment.) I feel so dirty and ashamed. I know God will help me through this. I just need to remember how far I've come before and do it again. I'm not sure how often I'll post, but please keep me in your prayers.