Days 101 to 150

From work to home to vacation I have been very busy since day 100. That doesn't mean I haven't been tempted. I've been finding new ways to avoid temptation and also practicing the old ways. The number one things for me to think of to get rid of my temptation are my wife and God. I don't want to let either of them down. I've learned I don't miss anything when I don't go to those websites that tempted me. I don't miss anything when I change the channel or avoid movies that may lead to something not good for me. And the reward is priceless - I have a clean conscience. I feel good about the last 150 days. I don't feel like I'm hiding anything anymore. I know I have a dark past but the Lord is pulling me through it. 150 days doesn't seem like very long compared to the lifetime I want to spend without porn. But if you're an addict, you know this has been hard. I know I'm not out of the woods yet, and I probably never will be. I'll always need to find new ways to avoid temptation and I'll always need to put my wife first. I can never repay my wife for the pain I've caused her, but I can prevent hurting her further. Sweetheart, thank your for all the encouragement and forgiveness you have shown me. I love you.